i know that this is not the time

but then it never will be

mingled sounds below my head

pleading for anything everything

the sun rises each morning

to my sleep and i

sit and watch and wonder

i know who sleeps now and always

we try to live try to plummet

into ecstasy through the

most unreliable sources

must it be the same

every time around

i was in the desert

crying out loud yet hiding it all

break off a piece and chew

this agony is self imposed

and needs improvement

break the bond now or

you will be bound to my soul

along with all the others

i shove you

i hate you

i blank you